consumed by bordem. eeeeee!

Im procrastinating, i should be studying for my last finals for 2mro and copying some packets for econ. 2mro im basicaly going to be done. 2mro after school i jsut need to finish my english which will take me like proly 15 minuites. awesome. 2mro i just need to make sure everything is going well and then start the process of checking out. which check out is on friday. im getting nervous every second about graduation. eeek! almost done... just a few more days of waking up early... eeee!!!

ew i need to clean my room. hehe.

today i blazed for the first time in 2 months!! gah... nick convinced me since thats not good. Yesterday i took him home and had a good talk with him. it was really intense. then today i went over to pick up stuff i forgot at his house and he convinced me to blaze a bit... uhhhh... i only had one bowl and it was soo dank i was blazed for like 4 hours!!! sooo incredibly badddd. haha.. hes such a sweetie but oh man, hes tricky.

this weekend should be ok. go up to ontario for one night then saturday maybe hookah with matheny and blackie. maybe... yikesss. i dunno! but monday is casino night so im waiting for that.

Im listning to 1950's cuban music. its orgasmic. i honestly think i was born in the wrong time period. i would love to be in the 1950's cuba or brazil or argentina! just to move to the beat of the latin fever. its the best music ever. also good music is the rat pack era. i would of loved to be around that time. just going along the drum beats and cool jazzy tones that make u swing side to side moving ur hips with joy and snapping ur fingers to the soft melodies of happyness. they were soo romantic. just listnening to michael buble makes me smile sooo big!!

i want posters of the following:
1) daniel craig
2) sean connery
3) Timothy Dalton

all have a charm that just makes u melt... eee! and they are bonds..which is some extra cool points. sexxxyyyy!



i need a manly man. hahahah

maroon 5's music is making me emo and making me want to cry..uhhh need to listen to somehting that will be uplifting and happy... nina stop being a wussie!!

i just need to keep telling myself that. but im good! im happy! and if im not ppl dont know that cuz i bottle everything. and soo much is happening in my life where ppl would be amazed of how much i bottle up.. sheeesh...

im strong though i just dont have anybody to go to and just let loose in the tears. like i do but i have gona to them in the past where i dont want to look like a drama queen sooo!! i make myself think about good things. which i think works ok... but i feel shaky and i had a long stressful week so far that my meds arent working that great... uhhhhh... i hate anxiety.. and when i think about anxiety it makes me have it more... uhhhh stop!! this is all mad. i just need to be upbeat...

i still need to do homework and study!!! uhh this is fustrating!!! and its 9 oclock!! this is bull!! ok focus focus! ouch my neck hurts i pulled it soo bad a month ago that its been hurting since then and nothing seems to be helping. no advil not even ice!! it hurts soo bad... i think its time i see a doctor about it...

wow this is all comming from not wanting to do my homework.. yikes. haha. i guess ill continue this 2mro. or whenever i feel like it.

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