the summer wind, came blowing from across the sea....

i think its hard having your parents basically argue and just lose all the hope they had in each other to some pretty stupid things.

its also hard talking to my dad and hearing specific words come out,
"long term, your mother and i wont be together."

uhhh why does this have to happen.... i just need to be strong and just be mature about it and deal with it, and not be like a little kid going was it me? why is daddy leaving?

my dad told me he doesn't want to do anything right now cuz he doesn't want to leave my mom with debt and shit. hes basically trying to make sure everything is paid off and i settle down fine.

Im going to Mexico officially in September, but im trying to make it beginning of October so i don't miss Lindy's b-day.

it's just from sept. to December. its not that bad. and i'll be in the carribean, and working at a bar.

rachel said shed visit me and brandy is upset, she started to cry. its soo sad.
the postive things about me going, is id get a laptop! and the black berry pearl, and id get drunk everynight. soo yeah. and i can go to internet cafes to go on the internet. which is awesome.
i think it will be fun. and i might go to school there. im not sure, but id go for jsut that semister.
i only wanna take like 2 classes and thatd be business and spanish.

i dunno. it will look cool on resumes. which is good. soo im trying to be positive about this.

i think it sux to be me right now... but i just gotta keep my head up high and just focus on this week. my graduation, my friends, brandys graduation, fathers day. i just want this week to goo better.

and tonight is casino night with rachel and the gang, soo i gotta get my game on and win those slot machines..who knows, maybe ill be lucky and win some mullaaa!
if i start winning a few buck i say fold. i dont want to lose everything. gotta be smart about tricky those bastard slots. oooo i will get to play black jack. im the person where if i go over and its like 24 i say hit me.."i dont care hit me!" hahaha.

be positive nina.. be positive...

haha maybe i should try to pracitce the secret where i visualize it and it will come true. hahaha

nooootttt!

ay yi yi...

<3